Caught in the inbetween

Caught in the in between

Is this real or just a dream?

I say what I want but not what I mean

I live for a moment and quietly forsaking

This is what I was mistaking

a friend or a fiend a weed or a tree

to stay or to leave? Tie or unweave?

This is a constant heart moniter irregular,

up and down I just dont want to die alone

I flew off feeling and its what dropped me to the bottom

and now I feel as if feelings even based off truth if i got em

wont suffice to choose the path because the last chosen was sinful wrath

stand tall idk how Im brought low even now The laziness is more real from the ground

and the words im sayin are barely qualified as sound.

If i refused to turn

before after i learned

why would it be okay

if once ive fallen off the path

and turned my back and death

ran back to stir the flesh

maybe i could enjoy death.

I don't deserve anything I ran away

and spit in your face

I dont wanna believe what I know is true but thats probly feelings too