Where I was

I was previously working for a Ministry in Texas called Teen Mania.  At this Ministry there are 4 branches: The Honor Academy, Global Expeditions, Acquire the fire and Extreme Camps.

-The Honor Academy is a 1 Year leadership internship focusing on Faith, Integrity, Relationships, Vision and Excellence.

-Global Expeditions sends out youth and adults on mission trips to more than 25 countries a year.

-Acquire the Fire is a 27 hour weekend event filled with Speakers, Drama, Bands, and Worship.

-Extreme Camps hosts hundreds of kids each summer for summer camps.

I graduated the, 1 Year, Honor Academy internship in August of 2011.

After months of searching, praying and seeking council then praying again I didn’t know what I was supposed to do.  I kept praying and God brought all of my prayers to completion.  Not at all in any way I had thought or assumed it would play out.

I was accepted to be on the Acquire The Fire, August Class 2011-2012 Ministry Team for the Normal’s Not Enough tour.  God sped up the healing process during the time I had Mononucleosis in August and allowed me to be ready to return in time to remain on the Ministry Team to tour.

We have finished the fall tour after putting on 1 Youth Pastor Conference and 7 events in 7 States and 2 countries while covering 12,000 miles on the road.

I am currently on the Spring tour and in order for the travel, housing, food, and ministry to be done there is a budget that I need to meet monthly in order to stay on the team and provide the Ministry with enough finances to be sustained.

That Amount is $450.00 a Month.

Please ask God, with me, believing He will provide me with what He has called me to.

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Is this it?

Am i just waiting for the next meal?

is there more or is this the real deal?

I dont want to live just to get by

Its the freedom I see in the sky

Its the purpose thats deep down inside

the quiet heartbeat that brings me to life

feelings are waves they're up and there down

I feel theres more ways to live without drowning

My head is giving up

My Spirit cant get enough

live underneath the skin

I see a glimps when I close my eyes again

I can feel I can see

I can feel it in the air

I can see it in the sky

I feel it in the wind rushing through my hair

I can see it in the leaves

rustling in the trees

I know your all around me

I can feel it with my toes in the grass

I see you in the sky above as helpless clouds float past

your not a pot, you made the clay

and with our dirt and cracks so unworthy

you still mend and value the unwanted

you found the lost and bring to life to the dead

World Beyond

Behind my eyes

the lights arise

Burning up what appearance hides

I feel it pulling me in

the deeper the sore the Slower i spin

My heart tears for a world beyond my own

restless the tsunamis and earthquakes as she groans

Freedom Gracer

The center of my core wants to know you more

although the outside is what everyone sees

The evil nature inside of me try's to ignore eternity

But there's a deeper fire kindled underneath

I can feel the excitment of the shortlived counterfits and out of places

But the truth and freedom that I've found has come only as He graces

Caught in the inbetween

Caught in the in between

Is this real or just a dream?

I say what I want but not what I mean

I live for a moment and quietly forsaking

This is what I was mistaking

a friend or a fiend a weed or a tree

to stay or to leave? Tie or unweave?

This is a constant heart moniter irregular,

up and down I just dont want to die alone

I flew off feeling and its what dropped me to the bottom

and now I feel as if feelings even based off truth if i got em

wont suffice to choose the path because the last chosen was sinful wrath

stand tall idk how Im brought low even now The laziness is more real from the ground

and the words im sayin are barely qualified as sound.

If i refused to turn

before after i learned

why would it be okay

if once ive fallen off the path

and turned my back and death

ran back to stir the flesh

maybe i could enjoy death.

I don't deserve anything I ran away

and spit in your face

I dont wanna believe what I know is true but thats probly feelings too 

Flesh fight

I got flesh runnning through my head

buggin me about being put to death

I got a mind that rolls like a river and thoughts that swim like fish

and just as fast as I told you off ran my only wish

defense is a hard life to live

the money we spent the time we give

Ode to humility, God you know us through

Let the quickly, fading flower rise up and bloom

let the worries that are tied to you burn into ash

let my view of the predisposed nature of your heart break like expensive glass

Let it fall away the fear, The lust, the doubt

now trust, cleanse the heart, cleanse the soul,

My mind and eyes and all me whole

Burn away my flesh The Spirit is Always fresh

Every wonder why we run from responsibility but want to have it all? Every wonder why we're so shocked when someone famous falls? Didja ever wonder didja ever wonder why the Sky is blue or if beauty is just a clue or if your soul has a body and no one saw the real you didja ever wonder didja ever wonder how you got here where were you before your parents Who made you notice your appearance? How'd you get here Can you see the world or just your street? Do you know your self or just the beats? Do you really know what you want? Do you really know what you need? You know the sun is Hot and warms your skin but you dont know more than a life lived by feelin You know the sun goes up and the sun goes down but as it turns out The earths spinnin round and round didja ever wonder? Didja ever wonder? Why Didja every wonder if a question would suffice? Didja ever wonder? didja ever wonder? Didja every wonder why?

A night write

Where does new come from?

Seems like old is never cool

and same old looks like school

but as a pro 1 billion throws and the money is a tool

where does annoyance come from?

Who slept to much or not enough?

Who played to soft or too rough?

Who wants more and whos had enough?

alone a failer is depression but pull us in and fight to win

the story of a God as man, a story come to life again

a life of freedom freed from sin. From the rotting path i slid

and on this path i will begin

new heart new mind Finding use in time

burn from within, one first one behind, heart goes then the mind

The out comes from within fill up to pour out

breath in to breath out

relief comes deeper than a drug to write is as a song or tune

and a poem is as my heart for you

a fire thats shut up deep inside, my bones i feel it shaking me its burnin inside

Always tearing free theres not a place it can hide

The burn of my soul never stops or grows dull

the sting of the air on my cheek like a bird in flight or dark in the night the strength all comes from my weak~ness

Heaven (Treasure)

Heaven is Burried tresure that no man's lived to discover
For years men have been searching trying to uncover
A mystery, a foreign land that reminds us all of home
Some shrug it off as makebelieve & those ones die alone

A ship of a thought sailed through my head the other day
Its name was Something More
No matter how hard I tried or with the Crow Bar of my mind pryed
The ship was stuck on shore

I recken this is about when it hit me
a fact that I'd denied and tried to hide since I's a boy
That ship in my mind had served to remind a dull witted human like me
That the treasure was real and tied to the keel was a burning that made me believe

Well, I searched for that treasure
and the whole earth I measured looking to find a way out
and as it turns out the burning inside burned that ship down to the depths
and along with a shout i felt very devout and found myself at pearly gated golden steps

Its not hard to forget when im living in it
the burning wasn't messin about
I guess the treasure was real and so was my zeal
it took me to die to find that one out